I love myself,
and hate myself,
and everything in between.
The scope of emotion
I have towards myself
is far too developed
to only be
positive or negative.
I have a more complete
understanding of who I am
than anyone else can.
acedia: a state of listlessness or torpor, of not caring or not being concerned with one's position or condition in the world
allostatic load: the "wear and tear" on the body which accumulates as an individual is exposed to repeated or chronic stress
anhedonia: an inability to feel pleasure from generally pleasurable occurences
besotted: infautuated, senseless, morally blinded, characterized by drunken stupidity
doldrums: a spell of listlessness/despondency/inactivity/stagnation
eccedentesiast: one who knows their own feelings, but is too insecure to express them accurately
ennui: a feeling of weariness/dissatisfaction/boredom resulting from overexposure to something
fervor: an intense and passionate feeling
flabbergasted: intense shock, suprise, astonishment
frisson: a sudden shiver/surge/shudder/moment of intense excitement
kenopsia: the eerie atmosphere of places that were once bustling with people but are now empty & quiet
lachrymose: causing, given to tears and weeping
maudlin: effusively sad/self-pitying/sentimental
orectic: of or pertaining to the desires, appetitive
ornery: cantankerous, disagreeable
saudade: profound (often nostalgic) melancholic longing for something/someone that one cares for; the love that remains after someone is gone; memory of something with a desire for it
schadenfreude: delight in the misfortune of another
sehnsucht: longing, desire, yearing, craving
toska: spiritual anguish, a listless melancholy, a sadness with no specific cause, a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a vague restlessness, ennui
weltschmerz: a sort of weary depression with the human condition or state of the world